I desire that which I have never known

All my life I have never experienced love. there is someone though that by definition i have loved for years. We both suffer from a lot of darkness, but she is the light to mine. We never dated due to circumstances. after years we managed to find each other again. however trauma has destroyed and chance of being more than friends. I want to know what it’s like to be happy and to make them happy too. I do not want to cross the line of tampering with free will that is wrong. My wish is this I wish with all my heart and soul a chance to be with her a chance of dating each other. A chance for us both to be happy a chance to hold each other up a chance for their to be a spark of being seen as someone she could give a chance to fall for. As I said no tampering with her free will I just want there to be a chance for us being together by everyday influences like pictures that make her think about what it would be like or a song plays that could trigger romantic thoughts I do not want to wish for a forceable thing on her free will as much as I lover I will never do that I just wat to influence chances around her…..i wish for a chance to be her boyfriend and something possibly more someday. If this is legit it will have saved the life of someone that is ready to give up on living because all of my trauma. i just wish for an unavoidable chance…. please I wish this with all my heart and soul